Failing to Breathe

I have decided to take three hours of my valuable time from writing my dissertation to writing this song. To sum up the song it speaks about having faith in the times when you are in doubt. Faith is a wonderful thing to have when you have it, it should be treasured, preferably in gold cloth, however finding it can sometimes seem almost impossible. People say that loss, love or just about any other heart breaking thing are some of the hardest things life can throw at you, but life overall is hard!! I cannot tell you how much I have struggled with faith and the acceptance of who I truly am recently, still I don't know the answer, but I know if I stop looking for it then I wont find it.

I've recently wondered if God sometimes puts us in these positions so that we can find ourselves again. If I was always happy and content then I'd probably have too big an ego and would not talk to God much because I'd think I wouldn't need him. Sometimes being at rock bottom is just the start of the mountain and there is nowhere to go but up. I believe having your values shaken and everything tested in life brings you to God exactly as he wants you, he wants us to be humble in life like a child, where we are not afraid to cry, to confess our feelings and to believe that all are equal. I also believe life is a journey and we have to experience as much emotion as possible, good and bad. If I had to go through life without pain and suffering I think by the time I got to Heaven I would take it for granted because I would have known bliss all my life. I would rather learn everything I can on this Earth so that by the time I entered Heaven I could collapse at my creators feet knowing that I have left the world a stronger and different person.

Verse 1
If I step alone I’ll be sure to fall I know
I can’t do this, can’t do it on my own,
But the world has its scope of troubles let them float
Up above, onwards up, where there’s doubt there is hope

Build
On failing to breathe, what’s the worst that can happen to me?
Sent to a home where I’m not depending on what I cannot see

Chorus
Raise me up, Raise me up,
Let the Heavens open up above
In our pain lies victory,
Even when drowning,
You should never feel like failing
Failing to breathe, breathe
Failing to breathe, breathe

Verse 2
If your faiths not in his hands, you're a living dead man
When the soul, has turned cold, and the bitterness has grown
You can say you love him, but what does it mean
Before the test is put to rest, we can either swim or float

Build
On failing to float, there is still a ray of hope
Cos when you’re at your end, that is when God will then
Prop you up, with his love

Chorus
Raise me up, Raise me up,
Let the Heavens open up above
In our pain lies victory,
Even when drowning,
You should never feel like failing
Failing to breathe, breathe
Failing to breathe, breathe
  
Mid 8
Sometimes I float, sometimes I stumble,
Sometime I hide, sometimes I seek
Sometimes I’m proud, sometimes I’m humble
Sometimes I don’t want to be me

Chorus
Raise me up, Raise me up,
Let the Heavens open up above
In our pain lies victory,
Even when drowning,
You should never feel like failing
Failing to breathe, breathe
Failing to breathe, breathe

 Karl Smitherman © 2012 published 2012